Get Away

I really needed to get away from things today. I couldn't see things clearly, and everything seemed to be too much to bear. I felt it again, the sense of feeling that makes me feel small and the world is much bigger, ready to stomp on me any second it forgets I am nearby. All I could think of was how much I needed to be away from all of this. I know that I have many flaws that no one similar should have. I knew this a long time ago and even though there was a time when it was eating me up, I already made a recovery by not thinking about it too much and just living my life being carefree. Today, I couldn't help self-reflecting.  I was afraid of everything, of life, of the fact that all these burdens on my shoulder have become unbearable. I kept thinking I shouldn't have bitten more than I could chew and now I'm being reminded again how bad I am at living my life. I began to regret all decisions I made all over again even though I have reached the point of letting it pass. The wall I've been trying to build once again becomes vulnerable and I'm afraid of breaking. Shit, I can't deal with this, I need to get away.